memalukan diri

Assalammualaikum...

Hello :)

well, nobody ever intentionally want to memalukan diri in public.

Jatuh maruah, harga diri and market kejap..sadis at the thought of it!!!

Well last week i did it..dekat library pulak tu..
Ok here how the story goes, I baru je lepas makan so I have another 3 hours before the next class start then me and my friends decide nak masuk library and pinjam DVD Legally Blonde and watch it untuk mengisi masa lapang (baik sgt kan? masuk library pinjam DVD bukan pinjam buku) then our law library ada sliding door yang kaca semua tu yang i think da uzur nak mati sensor dia..so Izan dengan penuh confident masuk la tanpa perasan yang sensor tu tak detect izan which causing the door nak tutup semula sebab dia ingat xde manusis yang nak masuk.........then GEDEGANG!! bunyi pintu kena langgar. and all the perpustakawan and semua yang ada kat dalam perpustakaan tu terbehenti sebab nak tengok siapa la si cantik manis yang bengong sangat pergi langgar pintu besar gajah tu..
Shaa, my sis and my family can't stop bahan i la kan n siap dapat nickname 'gadis pintu'!

HALAMAK!!! MALU NAK MATI MANA NAK LETAK MUKA!!
tangan sakit lagi tapi nak buat mcm mana kan, msuk je la library and buat muka sardin and muka tembok 10 inci..haish malu gila!!
Before, pernah jugak memalukan diri! I was hyperventilating just after dapat tau kelas company batal which banyak la masa free before kelas islamic jurisprudence. I was like wiggling dalam 'kegembiraan' sebab kena stay kat library lama gila. Tapi izan xperasaan yang ada satu pekerja perpustakaan tu tengah tengok me with his mouth wide open.. Terkesima agaknya tengok ada seorang budak nie pakai baju warna pink dok wiggle-wiggle badan dia kat tengah2 library hahahahahaha
I senyum kat dia and terus call shaa cakap nak pergi bilik dia..

But the good part is the person yang I have my crush on tu not around at the time I memalukan diri tu la..
Dalam banyak2 kemalangan tu masih ada jugak benda positif! Alhamdulillah!!

I told my mum about all the stuff I did at university both memalukan and non-memalukan, UKM mostly and she said always cherished that moment because later in life you will remember those moments and smile :) At least you tak buat any crime or dosa besar yang will haunt you for the rest of your life...At least when you ingat balik, instead of cry and menyesal, you will be laughing.

Laughing is good, no?

Wrong impression

Assalammualaikum.

Hello :)

Today I break someone's heart.

Hope he'll recover soon :) and hoping he get someone better than me! much much better!

Wrong impression.......

I always give one and usually unintentionally.

Selalunya benda ni jadi kepada lelaki in my situation la.

I tak tahulah kalau I bagi a wrong body language or the way i speak or act or anything, it will end up people misunderstood.

Izan selalunya kalau izan layan lelaki or perempuan sama je. Tapi I don't know why orang lelaki yang izan selalunya berkawan will mostly end up meluahkan perasaan jiwa raga dia. If a guy Izan yang approach dulu,usually izan just intended nak buat kawan je. Because you know me, I will never cakap dengan orang yang Izan betul-betul suka unless really terpaksa. Weird huh?

Izan suka kawan dengan lelaki sebab usually dorang more open and fun and xdela nak sikit-sikit terbelengot, sedih, sentap segala. Senang kan? Jokes yang kasar sikit pun dorang bleh terima :)

Tapi I tak tahu lah how maybe salah body language or ayat percakapan seharian ke but they will end up buat confession.

I am not orang yang tergolong dalam orang yang cantik kot therefore i usually rasa pelik but tu tolak tepilah kerana sesungguhnya cinta tak mengenal rupa mahupun harta (ayat!!).

Tapi yang sayangnya, it will totally ruined the relationship yang terbina tu!

once you dah kawan rapat and dah biasa buat benda n cakap macam biasa tapi  sekali dia luahkan perasaan then you terpaksa tolak then puff, one beautiful relationship ruined in a snap....

If ada orang yang faham and still  tak kisah jadi kawan tak ape but usually dorang tak nak and end up ada satu awkwardness bila both of us around and lantas dua-dua tak bertegur dan terlerai satu ikatan persahabatan.

sedih medih pedih at the thought of it!!

Tapi disebalik kesedihan tu kena ingat yang semua yang terjadi tu ada hikmahnya...hehe

Never-ending test..

Assalammualaikum..

Last 2 weeks I have my Equity and Trust test, Last week I have a land law test, then this week I have a Public International Law test then next week I have 2 test in the same day which are company law test and Islamic jurist test which both of it is a killer subject. I really don't know how I will be able to pull it off!!

I watch Legally Blonde again today at library. I was the girl who really want to be Elle Woods. I used to watch that movie when I was younger and bercakap di dalam otak dan hati berkata, 'jadi law student is sooooo much fun!!' But darling, it wasn't that fun, but watching that movie seolah-olah make me forget that real life will never be as easy as it is in the movie.. It's much more harder and different. Cases, statutes, PBLs and whatnots...Penat kot!! I should really slap my own cheek very hard before I chose law the other day after watching Legally Blonde! That is such a very bad reason. 'Why you ambil law in the first place?' , 'owh, I just watch Legally Blondes with Elle Woods in it and Law seems fun!' 

SERIOUSLY IZAN?

Sometimes, I wish I was somebody else. Maybe Beyonce? or maybe Fazura ke? Dorg kan cantik and kaya. Everyone loves them!

Nothing else to write..toooo lazy 

GOOD-BYE!

Don't overjoyed, everything must be in a moderation :)

Assalammualaikum!

" Jangan terlalu banyak gelak, nanti menangis?"

Ever heard of such phrase?

Well that always happens to me..weird how usually it turn out to be really accurate!!

Ok let me sum up my whole day yesterday..

I was really malas nak pergi kelas ekuiti both lecture and tutorial but still dragged my feet to faculty of law, UKM for a certain reason that i should not tulis dalam post ni! 

Well i wake up early because my sister will be the one who will drop me at my faculty however, just lepas i keluar from the simpang tiga rumah i, i received a text from Shaa stating that the class was cancel! Yay yay yay yay!! well seriously i was really glad but in the same time kinda sad for some reason that tak sepatutnya dipertontonkan di sini. Then later, i got another text from my batch leader, KP stating that ekuiti tutorial pulak yang batal. Ok happie la lagi kan? seronok sgt rasanya sebab I really not ready to listen to 3 cases presentation at 11 in the morning! so lepas tahu kelas batal, I then dragged my leg and my maxi purple dress tu to FEP Teres Eko Niaga to buy some food and then went to library to rearrange my part for Company Law tutorial but saya telah terserempak dengan kegembiraan luar biasa yang mana saya tidak mampu berhenti untuk senyum, senyum dan terus menerus senyum sepanjang hari. Lepas tu, my presentation was a blast. As a conclusion, my whole day was super duper great la!! Even when i went to IPD Kajang for my attachment thingy, it went as smooth as silk  :)

However, today was a suck sucky suck suck day..

Tak payah cerita boleh?  

Shine Bright Like A Diamonds

Assalammualaikum..

Hello :)

MISS ME?? hehe

I was listening to Rihanna song, hence the title :)

As i told you previously, i'm having my land law test today, and Alhamdulillah i could say that i did quite well. Well i did put few cases and a correct section (I guess). I'm satisfied (for now) hehe My space law class was cancelled today after waiting for half hour in bilik seminar. My lecturer's father was sick or something and the more good news is, next week class also cancelled because she's having a conference or stuff.

right now, I'm stressing on searching for a place for my Latihan Industry or attachment. I called Markiman & associates at my lunch time and seriously even if they want me to do attachment with them, I will refuse to do so. The one who was answering the phone was super duper rude!!! Hate her! Come on people, be polite even if u are refusing or rejecting. It make the rejection a little less sucks. I was asking like this, ' hello, nama saya Nursyaizan dari fakulti undang-undang UKM, saya nak tanya sama ada firm cik menerima pelajar untuk buat attachment?" and her reply was, "No, no, no, no, no, (followed by hempasan telefon ke gagangnya!)" unbelievable people!! where is your manners? Doesn't mean we are younger than you, you don't need to respect us! Respect to me is a two way relationship. If you want to be respect, then give respect.

urghh!!! so, I think i might go to IPD Balai Polis Kajang. I have always fascinated by criminal cases but the problem is my mom seems to show some disapproval. Seriously, I macam nak je cakap , " Mak, Izan don't even want to be a lawyer, you maybe looking at a future kindergarten teacher/owner or maybe a Montessori owner, where i do my attachment will never jeopardize my future" But she nampak so excited at the idea of me being a lawyer and I tak sampai hati because I would jump into an aquarium full of hungry sharks for her - I love her very very very very much! 

 I told my friend my dream of becoming a kindergarten teacher and she tunjuk a very terrified look. As if jadi kindergarten teacher tu a very wrong thing to do. What is soooo wrong with educating childrens? To me it is seriously super duper very MURNI OK! Can't you see,behind a lawyer ( or a doctor or a judge or a model or a prime minister or a... well you get what I mean right?), there are a great kindergarten teacher, a primary school teacher, a secondary school teacher and a great lecturer! To be short, everybody needs a teacher to teach u things. 

So, why can't I be a kindergarten teacher and at the same time own a Degree in Law? Doesn't that will only give me an extra edge to my qualification??  

Assalammualaikum, hello ":)

Well less than 24 hours I will be having my Land law test but still i'm here blogging rubbish for nobody to read.

But life is too short, we never know when Allah SWT will make a decision to take his wonderful gift to us therefore, do anything that you like as long as it does not go against any hukm in Islam.

So here I am blogging.

Last Sunday I went to my faculty mini Olympics or futsal match or whatever they called it. It was fun and I got to watch some handsome faces and laughed and enjoying the moments. When my batch score,Shaa n me was screaming our anak tekak out.

But at the same time, my lecturer was fighting for her life. She was a cancer patient. A liver cancer just like my late beloved pak cu. She was my constitution lecturer. I don't really like the subject but hey, I got an A for it.. I still remember in one of my tutorials class with Arwah, I was about to give an answer for her question and suddenly and unexpectedly, she asked me one random question, ' Nursyaizan? ada makna tak nama awak? , then I casually answer, 'ada, cahaya perhiasan'. I will never forget that conversation because after that tutorial, Shaa teased me saying she wants my name as her grandchildren name..haha very funny Shaa! I don't really love her because she can be very tak boleh dijangka in class..sometimes asking question around and also this one time, she wants me to read an article from Federal Constitution (article 8 or 10 if i'm not mistaken) and wrongfully called me Syuhaizan instead of Syaizan and I was laughing and Shaa was not helping at all at that time because she was vibrating trying to conceal that she is laughing too! Well, laughing is contagious, so I laughed too and maybe at that time I buat her bengang or something and she asked somebody else to read the article while saying, 'someone boleh tolong bacakan article tu, sebab Syaizan tak boleh baca because maybe dia dah terhidu laughing gas' hahaha

But I don't hate her either. She was a very good lecturer and how she sampaikan her lecture is very interesting and full of knowledge. I wish I was a better student towards her. No, laughing in class or doing stupid stuff.

Well, we can't turn back time are we?

I didn't get to pay my very last respect to her as her pengebumian is in Penang, her hometown.

But I did pray and read Yaasin for her hoping it'll help her.

I do feel sad for her pemergian but sampai situ je janji dia dengan Allah SWT.

so, that is her faith.

All we can do is that recite her some Al-Quran and pray that she will be put among orang-orang yang beriman. Amin.

AL-FATIHAH

the 'WHEN' question...

Hey you! Assalammualaikum :)

Well, i have already told you that both of my elder siblings is married right?

You know, i was sooo excited to welcome new family members, and yes I will welcome a niece this May and I'm going to be Auntie Sya!! Being an aunt at 22? not that bad I guess plus I have always fond of children. I am always amazed with their imagination and pureness. So sweet! And how they can imagine a simple rock to be a cave and an old comforter as a tent and whenever they in their backyards and imagine that they actually in a jungle is totally bizarre! 

I love kids! I even dream of owning a Montessori of my own. Working with children is fun i guess.

so a definite YES for a niece!! 

So , they are married. Happiely married and i couldn't be happier for them. But the problem IS, when you are the last child of the family and you are an adult and not yet married, will come another problem. The 'when' question...

When my brother my got married, during his wedding reception, my sister was the one who been bugged with the question and I am the happie-happie girl going around being the youngest. But my sister have an answer which at that time is , " bulan dua tahun depan" as she already engaged at that time. AND a year later, on my sister wedding reception, it is my turn to be bug with the question, but this time I am super single and was not engaged to anyone. So I don't have an exact answer. I hate it when my relatives come to me with a smiling faces and just simply ask me, " izan bila lagi?" But at that time, i just endured it thinking that after this reception, i will never get to answer that question again. WRONG!!

Well, my relatives is now happiely at their homes, doing chores and doing their jobs and whatnots. And they didn't ask me the 'when' question anymore and I'm happie at the thoughts of it. But my happie-ness ruined once my sister and my brother start to come out with the exact question!!!! Right now I can't just simply pop up any guys name in front of my sister face. because she will end up thinking i have a crush on that exact person. And if she was the one who will send me to my class, i will be showered with the question too!!         ' When do you want to have a boyfriend, OMG!! I am so excited!' 

SERIOUSLY??? 

If i really know what Allah SWT has planned for me, trust me I will give you the most truthful answer!then comes my brother. Ok fine, i did kept someone pictures in my handphone but i forgot that my dearest big brother looooooooooved to do some crime scene investigation on it so I wrongfully and negligently let him hold my phone and  hesaw a picture he not suppose to look. And suddenly one fine fine super fine day, while I'm watching some telly, he called me all the way from China just to ask me who that person in the picture are..MY GOODNESS! When i refuse to answer, he will say 'ok, ok, along xtanya da' but then he ask in a different way, 'is he a medic student or a law student?' when i refuse again then he will ask in another different way, ' dah kerja ke?' or 'umur dia berapa' as if I am going to be caught in a tricky question. The other day, I was super alone, like nobody is with me and I went to midvalley to make some shopping and watch movie and while I was waiting for my theatre room (is that what they really called it?) to open, my phone was ringing n guess who? MY BROTHER! Again with his tricky question. ' kau sorang je ke? sapa nama kawan kau tu? 

Owh come on!!! stop it already!!

Well, i have an answer for your question : I will have a boyfriend when I have a boyfriend.

SATISFIED?

SEARCH WORD : ages - third year - married - crush!

It's been a while huh? Okay fine!!  it's been ages since the last time i write anything here.. But what makes me really don't care is that i know that no one is really following my blog here! Anyway, i feel like writing something so i write it. As easy as that..

Well, life been treating me well lately..My study and my life is fine! I'm in my third year now..quite bizarre i think. I used to seat at the long benches, waiting for U bus to go back to my residential college with Shaa n trying to figure out, how the seniors ever survive the law school while me (at that time was a first year student) was gasping for air and asking for an extra oxygen during classes and trying not to drown in every tutorials, but here I am a third year second semester student. How time flies by..very fast, super fast to be exact! 

My sister got married you know, early this year. To a guy she met during her study in Dublin. A nice guy to my observation. My parents adore him! he he

I am going to be an aunt if god willing this coming May. Kak Anis is pregnant with my brother and her first child!! And its a girl. Glad to know, easier to buys present for the baby. But don't get me wrong, i do not have any issue with a baby boy. Well, baby boy is hard when it comes to buying present for them. What to give? very limited choice, t-shirt, t-shirt and maybe a nice decent shoes? While on the other hand, baby girl have a nice dress, a beautiful tutu, a cute little boots and sweaters and bonnet and stuff..loads of stuff and they comes in beautiful colorful colors. FUN! 

I'm having a crush on someone, but you know me..never ever have the guts to say anything to him. Pathetic little me..how will he ever know that you like him? I am the kind of person which if i really like the guy, i will act like i don't even know that he ever exist in this surface of the earth. Never smile, never say hi or anything to him or never ever ever talk about him with anyone except from my best friend, Shaa or to anyone that i am fully sure that he or she is not a backstabber, cruel, mean, kiss & tell, psychopath, or  a lunatic serial killer. SEE.. Did u get the point??

 Actually, if i told you, i will have to kill you..

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