hate when I need to keep a secret..it's torturing me inside!!

right now.. I have a big secret that I should keep just to myself.. Nobody should know about it..
It would be suicidal if anyone knew about it..even my bestest buddy..hush hush I say to myself..but it's torturing me inside..I hate when I need to keep a secret especially from my parents!!

they are everything to me and I hope that I could tell them this secret without get scolded..
but what I've done is absolutely wrong and un-rational..and definitely not me!!
and there is no chances of not getting scolded from my parents!! This past few days, i'm sort of turn into a rebellious side of myself..it's look like my alter ego personality is taking over my life.. I don't want that..!!!!

Ya Allah!! Tolong hambamu ini...kenapa izan jadi macam ni? teruk la kalau terus macam ni!!!

new purse therefore, new ME!!

hie bloggy..huhu recently I heard this very very sad news from my friends..Thanks Arnie for sampaikan those news to me but darling, you bagitahu those news on an absolutely wrong time la..but still I have right to know it although I will have a swollen eyes cause by crying afterwards..

my so-called bestfriend is terribly shitty.. I called her last few day because I was shocked when she told me that she is married..my heart was devastated when my bestfriend tak bagitahu I yang she got married..
I called her and try to ask whether that rumours is true or just a stupid pranks ke ape ke..then when I called her, she was like umm..yeah..n she boleh pulak bercakap dengan her friend or whoever yang ada close to her that time while I was asking her question.. Sumpah I marah giler..then I hung up  then yang lagi cannot go is when she text me then say sorry, she was tired and have a lot of assignments n presentation to be done..
HELLO!!! like you seorang aje yang ade presentation and assignment kan? dulu before sekolah time habis..she cakap yang she sedih because after that tak boleh nak together lagi..cakap jangan lost contact la..ape la..tapi~ tup tup die yang lupe kawan..

then, another thing happens...remember Mr Koko?? yes that guy..last weeks ade thing happens yang sangat besar yang related to him..Adoii!! saket je hati..my heart crash, remuk and pecah berkecai beribu-ribu lemon..Right now I am trying very hard to get over him but of course la when we love one person tu damn much, it not that easy to get over him..but as an ASL president, I should not give up just because of one stupid guy yang tak boleh nak buat keputusan yang rational..Better move on je and leave him behind and seek for a better guy kan?

Third incidents is..about this one guy yang I terribly tak suke(hopefully my heart never ubah pendirian!!ever!!) but he cannot understand hints yang I bagi kat dia..still la die nak jugak kacau my piece of mind..nak kata die tu bodoh..ambil law pulak..entah la..tensen je!! Did I not make it clear yang I don't like you? I told you that I like somebody else right? that someone yang rendah dari I and when I pakai wedges I lagi tinggi dari die? Tolong la jangan hantar those messages tu..I am not playing hard to get but I really rejecting you..
ok??

fourth incidents ( too much bad things happens kan last few day??) On wednesday, my friends and I kena kunci kat luar kelas social psychology..Yes I admit yang I memang lambat at that time but baru aje 15 minutes late..not a big deal kan? bus kat mawar sangat susah nak dapat..kalau dapat pon InsyaAllah ramai and duduk dalam bas macam sardine!! we semua dah takut dah because we semua ingat yang Pn . Norezan yang lock us out tapi at the end of the class after my classmates yang pergi kelas tu keluar then mereka semua tell us yang ade makhluk Allah S.W.T yang kunci but bukan Pn Norezan.. I tak nak la bagitahu who is that stupid person takut nanti ramai pulak yang nak pergi debik belakang die and tumbuk muka die kn...

but this fifth incidents suddenly and magically brighten my day..I just got the parcel which carry my new Dorothy Perkins purse!! I am terribly love it!! Happie!! Happie!! Happie!!! So Happie!!!
 Can u tell how much power a new purse bring into your life? From sad and grumpy, it turn you into a happie happie happie person in just a second!!

So the comclusion is that, if you sad or down or grumpy or mad or or and lots more or, you better go out and have a retail therapy or if you too lazy to go out you can just do online shopping..hehehe..because the power of new stuff is very powerfull!!trust me!!

Fortunate me!!

yesterday I got my my MUET examination result...
drum roll please....(sound of drum rolling~~~)
I got Band 4..huhuhu(bangge..bangge..bangge!! of my own self)
although not that terrer but i am totally, definitely and terribly grateful n bersyukur(grateful n bersyukur tu carry same meaning kn?) kpada Allah S.W.T
i thought i gonna get only an average band 3 but when i read the text message with number 4..izan like dun know wht to say n what to do other than jumping in joy...huhu~~
sgt bahagia!!
I still remember the day when izan amek the writting, listening and reading test tu..
sgt cannot go..i was late on that day..
lupe nk bwk skali my IC n seriously kluar from examination hall dgn rase frust menonggeng thap dewa..!!
but all that frutration cam pay off after izan dpt result muet tu..
huhuhu..happienye!!

tolong la dun hurt my feeling anymore!!

my heart is totally broken at this moment and I even can smell the blood stinks..

Gosh!! I hate to feel this way!!

stupid!

stupid!

stupid!

 

retard camwhoring session...

actually since yesterday, me, myself and I already planned a camwhoring session..
however, the session is retarded at the early stage coz suddenly my black selendang M.I.A...

sad!!

sad!!

sad!!
(think of how shakespeare reciting one of his sonnet..that how i say these word!!)

then, after breaking sweat searching for my black selendang, I was so excited coz I thought that my camwhoring session is so on!!
however!!
jeng!! jeng!! jeng!!
guess what?? I stupidly left my beloved camera in my parents room and they already sleep silently!!
arghh!!! again my plan to camwhoring is retard!!

no worries!! If Allah S.W.T willing, tomorrow nvr  die!!

After this, I will make sure all my appliances for camwhoring will be ready n no more M.I.A or misplaced aite!!

So, N u ready darling for our camwhoring session??
Hope u do darling coz u gonna love it big time!!

i hv feeling to killed sumone..

i regain my sanity late this afternoon after hving a healthy dose of shopping...

as usual shopping session is great as usual...i buy sushi n green tea which lead to heaven on earth feeling..

cuci mate tgk pakwe2 yg separa jambu...

tp ble tgk pakwe2 n mamat2 jambu tu...izan suddenly tringat kat this one mamat yg I know..

tetibe rse bengang n marah filled izan punye heart!!!

hate but love him!!!

he make me happie n in the same exact time he annoyed me!!!

he make me smile n then he make me cry!!!

I wanna keep him but he will slip away!!!

how i am able to make him to obey me???

n stop hurting me???

but how???

idea jhat mule hinggap dlm otak xbrape geliga izan...

I think i wanna killed him n buried him at the back of my house

(look like i still not fully recover from my insanity)

can i killed him????

of coz not la darling!!! (fuh!! izan at last da fully recover n able to think rationally) yay me!!

it comes to chapter which called : fun and mental fundamental or izan xbrape btol

one...

two...

three...

bomkebabo!!!!(bunyi otak izan bkecai!)

begitula sepertinye thap kexbtolan izan arinie...
i dun know whether it's true ke x but rumour has it...
the rumour says that izan da xbtol...
kajian tlah dlakukan ke serata merata tmpat (i've told u izan xbtol smpai tatabhase pon tunggang tblik da)  demi utk mngkaji sebab musabab yg agak mnasabah n bleh dtrime pakai knape izan jadi bgini...
N yg sedari td ttido pon da tbangun coz kne kaco ngn izan..
dan kajian tlah menyatakan izan menghidapi sindrom kemalasan tahap gaban or kesronokan thap dewa kerna cuti sem...

amek phatian jika anda menghidapi simptom seperti brikut:
1. kulit limau ditinggalkan mrata2
2. kulit muka dn sluruh badan akan bsinar (terpengaruh ngn cite STARDUST)
3. makan 7-8 hdangan besar
4. sering brade dlm kekeliruan utk tgk cite ape kat tv..
5. perasan bhawa diri anda tu bintang n bkn mnusia biase(still tpengaruh ngn 
        STARDUST)
6. batuk berbunyi
7. tdur ngn mte tertutup
8. bernafas melalui hidung n makan n minum melalui mulut
9. menaip dgn mnggunekn jari jemari

PERHATIAN!!!!
kepada sesiape yg dluar sne mempnyai simptom yg berikut atau ada sdare mare yg bau2 drian dknali ad simptom sila la bjumpe doktor!!! (arahan bkn dari kementerian kesihatan)

AMAIGADD!!!!better i just off bfore i talk anymore crap in here n humiliate my very own self..
buh-bye!!